Thank You Ah Chong(haha)
Sunday, July 18, 2004
kelly says my attention-span is v short...yeah i agree...maybe that explains why i'm such an idealist. i tink too much and talk too much..but seldom does it solidifies into somethin concrete. now i dun believe in myself anymore..
i still remember how i wanted to attend bible studies...but in the end i'm afraid of the commitment that comes with it...
and i still remember how convicted i was to study hard like mad for my dreams..but along the way i faltered and slacked...
i recalled how determined i was to make my relationship work out right..but in the end i was the first one to give it up..
i remembered how eager i was to hold on to my ideals and beliefs..but now..i must be one of the most skeptical person alive...
i remembered how strongly i wanted to stay sanguine..but i'm always easily dampened..
i've always wanted to fight a war...but can i do that at all?
i want to start somethin for the mizpah kids..i am eager to..but i'm afraid of my own stamina..i cannot go on for long without a righthand man..
but it seems..no one is as eager as i am to start something that threads on a long-term basis..
sometimes i do things without thinking far enough into the future..
i am so short-sighted sometimes it kills me as things progressed..
what if i cant juggle all those things i wana do along with my studies and tuition jobs? i still have CBLC..i cant neglect my duties in that..
in the end i always question myself..."what have i landed myself into?"
consequences..consequences...consequences...
when will i ever give that fella a worthwhile thought..
when will i ever understand myself better and give myself a break?
when will i learn to aim for the tree branches instead of the sky?
when will i learn to organize my thoughts so that i can be more focused?
when will i learn how to balance like a pro?
jack of all traits master of none
interest and passion i have everywhere but undone
cheers,
fairy killer
posted by BruisedAlmighty @ 2:37 AM
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1 Comments:
der Untermensch said...
Your grief fow what you've lost lifts a mirror
up to where you're bravely working.
Expecting the worst, you look, and instead,
here's the joyful face you've been wanting to see.
Your hand opens and closes and sopens and closes,
If it were a fist or always stretched open,
you would be paralyzed.
Your deepest presence is in every small contracting
and expanding,
the two as beautifully balanced and coordinated
as birdwings.
9:13 AM
posted by Sanguinee @ 7:14 PM
3 Comments:
"i want to start somethin for the mizpah kids..i am eager to..but i'm afraid of my own stamina..i cannot go on for long without a righthand man..
but it seems..no one is as eager as i am to start something that threads on a long-term basis.."
U never asked...how do you know there's NO ONE as EAGER as you? Still water runs deep in some ppl.
Look at King Shrek for instance. Ultimately the outcome lies in not what we promise by mouth but what we do to keep the promise.
tis was a last year's comment la...see the date up there? i was just reflecting and remembered Ah Chong's poem which helped me last time ...and so it heped me again. makin a mental note here.
Brussel: I told u to read properly! Now u know what i mean when i say u are a FOOL!
Cordy: @%#^@$&^(*( ...Sollie lah! i oreidi i declared i was a FOOL
Mairdo: U deserved it.
Sorry, when 'their' emotions /passion RUN high, 'they' only focus on the jagular! 'they' really have no patience for ppl who don't practice what they preach or are total posers.
On their behalf Apologies for the unpleasant tone once again!
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