Bloop bloop blooop (con'td)

Damn it...i still cant sleep. The fish poo is still swirling around.
Swirl swirl swirl and *boing* ...i hit somtin. And that somtin is Mariane. Sigh, at the rate i am thinkin about him, people must be thinking i have a crush on him. *sigh* (sorry bosy)

Yesterday i asked bosy a question which i somewhat already knew the answer. I just had to ask for the sake of asking. I asked: "Bosy, am i being very mean to mariane?"
And yes i have been. Maybe mean isnt exactly the most appropriate word to use but somehow bosy understood. She added: ".....maybe a little too judgemental lor..."
And i know i could have been. i'm biased against him and everything he does now or done before(as i looked back with hindsight bias) is certainly not going to be given a rosy color by me. Devilia has come forth in me...

But how can i not be biased against him? How do i curb myself from being o so Devilia? I cannot do this alone and i need Lord's help.

Thy cannot move these bones
if those muscles do not move
if this heart dont beat
if this mind dont open the vessels
if this nose dont breathe
if these eyes dont see
if these ears dont hear
if all that is out there cannot be experienced.

In these i pray to Thee
To empower all us to be
the wisdom to see
the sensitivity to hear
the strength to climb
the courage to be trampled upon
and the love to crumble the tallest mountain in our hearts and mind.
All in all
These blessed be,
I thank Thee.