18 May 2005 ( 8 am India time)

People are getting sick, like the start of an epidemic. This illnesses spreads out like a raven's wing, even myself cant escape its grasp.
Giddy ( i think is because of the malaria pills). I hate this feeling e most. a head's illness is one of the worst thing to have, cos it affects everything especially your mood.

Today is sangeygirl's b'day and supposedly gona be very exciting and impressionable but i feel... lethergic. maybe its my head or maybe the doubt renewed.

O Lord if only things arent so complicationg or confusion-provoking. I want to trust MP but things are revealing and i cant just ignore it.