16 May 2005

It is queer how things turned out today. For some moments i was so glad of the precious moments with the kids, while another time i could get so pissed that i almost forgot God's words.

Sangeyboy was so mischeviously charming today. He dropped a stubby green chilli into my bowl while i was drinking from it with a spoon. He quickly ran into the children's room right after he did that feat. So cute huh.

And there was Michael. How sweet he is. He brought flowers for me again.(sangeyboy too) There was this unique, exquisite purple flower he plucked. So sweet. I'm so glad he was the one i grew closer to this time round.

Told them ghost stories today while picking stones. And they were so attentive that i couldnt help savouring every moment of attention.

I was hanging out with sangeyboy at the play station(top deck) today (after work). Thinking back, i feel so blessed i could melt with peace and gentleness. Sangeyboy (Choikon) was so so adorable. I'm gona miss him bad this time.

Today the baby rabbits came out.

At dinner, i thought Jenny was someone jus like me: She contradicts herself much.

I thought everything was turning out better with Mariane. Then something happened when we were doing night shopping excursion, that pissed me off quite a bit. Mariane nearly lost my water bottle after i lend it to him to drink water from. I couldnt help but felt disgusted by his cavaliar attitude. It was my water bottle for goodness sake. Why is he so careless with my things after being so caught up with his TOP. Urgh.
And whats with the "trying-on" back in the home?Disgusted!

Then i was in the bathroom.somehow i remembered my Lord's words. Reminded of the grace and the niceness to be.
Even as i am bent on the discomfort inside my heart; my feelings not going in one smooth flow, i only pray for those whome i love and do not love. For the latter only in prayers, shall they be whom i love too.
Bless Mariane clarity; of virtue; truth; humility and i shall thank you ever more.