What would i do without you?

its just wonderful to hear that bug got a job..but thats not the crux of what made me happy...
basically..im just very happy that she is happy with this new finding!
things havent been that smooth lately..especially with the marketing stuff that made me live through the sucker effect. plus all the workload and what came next and next and next and next...
its simply testin my faith n strength man..feelin rather thin now(not physically of cos..i wish!!)
just the other day..on the train..i was so great jean was there to listen to all my whines..i jus regressed into a baby man. jus where the hell are you?in heaven i presume..but cant u hear what i say?maybe not...cos my intentions are not right.they all say that.

but hearing bug..seeing peniel...and rememberin them all...i'm reminded to hang on(yeah maybe thats why im kinda breathless). they gave me the impetus to continue hangin myself..a good sign? i seriously hope so.And i definitely will not cut the string because i believe i can live through that ordeal without breathin..even if i have to become blind-er by 100 degrees for each of my already goldfish eyes.i guess its worthwhile to see myself in Australia one day. or maybe in U.S. beside zimbardo? haha..sounds corny..i should stamp on my own feet now.(ouch)