Outing in town

It's quite fun shopping alone really, because when u shop alone, u get to notice all those things that would otherwise go into your blindspot if u were with someone. You get to control your vision like a digital camera that chooses its angle, magnification magnitude, and the style(black and white, brown, colourful, motion pictures or still art). It can be so interesting if you jus let your mind wonder a little. And if you let yourself add a little sound effect, a smile or two may force itself out of your mouth, or a gang of laugthers held secretly in your tummy. yeah..that sure tickles.

When you are alone, you get to be as mean as u wana be, or be sweet and docile as u wana be. Walk the way you wana, even if it mean changing from confident strides to sulky hunch-backed steps in minutes. You get to look at people and critisize them all you want, study them as if they are animals in cages, and mock them with raised eyebrow if they look exceptionally weird.Do almost anythin in private, but still remain in close proximity to the crowd. However, i have to admit that the crowd can get quite frustrating, and it sure does kick one's patience to a whole new level. I think an ant would have moved faster in the human jam, jus as those bikes that whoozes past all those helpless cars jammed on the roads.

I sheltered a stranger with my brolly today, and i felt so good that i forgot to shelter the next stranger that was waiting to cross the road. Talk about swell headed, i think mine had exploded!Actually.... i wasnt really swell-headed. I jus thought that it would be inappropriate to offer her my brolly without having her partner joinin in as well.It wasnt that i have anythin against her partner, but her partner was jus plain huge!(nah..my brolly was too small). And so i stared at her, and she stared back, and then i stared at my feet.

Sometimes i like to imagine myself out of my body, like some extraterrestrial being (mabel?haha..) watching over myself. And i would start imgaining wat it would be like if the ET-Me was Mr Pan or Elmo.What would they think, feel, behave? Would they come up to say hi?scorn at me? or hide in some corner and stalk me for the rest of my journey? I sound so self-obsessed when i say that, but i cant help it!My whole life centers around me!(Theré is a term for this in psychology, it's called the looking-glass self)

The final thing i wana say is that of my discovery.I found something in CityHall that is so beautiful and secretive, so mersmerising, i cant help falling in love with it.It is not hidden somewhere discrete, neither is it expensive or reserved for certain people. It's just there, above the escalator leading to RAffles City.The ceiling that looks like its studded with stars.And the stars changes colors if you notice carefully enough; like the different red stars, white stars and twinkling ones. Like i said earlier, it's in the lindspot of most people, and its beauty only lies in the beholder. And if one might find me alone in town, it can be quite amusing to see all those facial expressions that i morphed, and those of which, only i can remember them all.