My Quest has started

Beginning to realise oneself as of embarking an adventurous trip is not a recent relevation, neither was it a desire or creation on its own.I have been travelling ALL MY LIFE. Tiring as it seem, it is a preference over a stagnant life.

With this commitment in the new project to India, i serve to be served unto, with myself alone being the ruler and the servant.Sounds complicating? Not really.
To be the ruler of my mind and body, i seek for self -control and the power to enlighten myself; to bring a more purposeful life to my 100 years in reign. Discipline is a constant battle with the slavery i have imposed on my kingdom, and to have complete discipline is impossible because slavery forms a consciousness of my need for discipline.But i seek to eradicate slavery, to truly undertsand the gift of free will.
Next, as a ruler, i should seek no sympathy from anyone especially myself.To have self-sympathy is to acknowledge own's weakness and inabilty to conquer the ordeals of a treacheruos voyage. The consciousness of it kills me...and then how am i going to be strong if i continue to lament about every single thing in my life? How do i stop all this? How do i continue to be strong without being obnoxious or condescending? All this...and more...i seek for answers. And that's where the servant comes in.

As a servant, i serve my master in finding relevant information. I'm like the eyes. the ears, and the nose of my master. But my master leads me, my master controls me.As a servant, i must be loyal and i must ensure that my work is done properly. I cannot procrastinate because if i do, my master will procrastinate too.I cannot rebel against my master cos if i do, i shall cease of existence. My master and i are one, and i am the kingdom of my own.